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One Night of Sin is a title that very much inspires a dirty though in a person's mind, don't you think? Every classmate who's seen the book got almost exactly the same reactions...well, depending on the sex of the person, that is.

The girls were all, O.o "Ste, you read these kinds of things?" followed by appalled gasps or blushes. The guys' reactions were much more enthusiastic, going all, "Whoa! Do they have miracles written in there?" followed by the picking up of the book and shuffling through it in the hopes of finding those "miracles" happening.

I get a kick out of this, really. Especially with our society being somewhat discreet in the whole sexual context.

Cess's reaction to it though gave me pause, and made me think. Her reaction at first was the customary, "You read this stuff?" then said, "I don't like these kinds of things because it violates what I believe in," or something along those lines.

I said, "The title can be misleading, but it's not that bad. It's only called that because this girl wanted to outsmart her pursuer and the only way to do that was sleep with this guy--"

"Yeah," she interjected, "but I don't like anything that has to do with sex," Then she said, "Reading things like this," she holds out the book, "is not very chaste." She sighed, "Sometimes I feel like I'm the only virgin left in this school. I'm a very firm believer in chastity and sex after marriage and all that."

I nodded at her answer and said that I'm pretty open about those things. And I am. I like to think of myself as an open-minded person. I don't cringe or get embarrassed when we talk about anything of sexual nature. Comes with the territory, I guess. Growing up with a bunch of guy-cousins with wild testosterone can do that to you, as well as having idiotic guy friends who watch hentai all the time and then tell you what they saw in vivid detail even when you never even asked.

I said those things to Cess and what she said really hit.

She said: It's okay for guys to talk about things like that because nothing to lose.

Hearing those words...I don't know whether to be amused, flattered or insulted. She has a point, though. And I guess when it comes to purity, my mind is tarnished. I like knowing things, but then, it made me think that maybe my mind's innocence was the price to pay.

But which is better? Being left blissfully ignorant, or being jaded?

Innocence has always been equated to the girl's virginity. Some say a girl isn't innocent, or pure anymore if they have be...er...defiled because they now have the knowledge of carnality. But then, anyone can be a virgin and not be pure in thought anymore.

...Then again, those learn through words are different from the real first-hand experience. But...tons of rape victims have been violate, those young girls especially. And little girls are hardly labeled impure, no matter what the public may think. And what about the good mothers? I doubt that they can be called impure, after bearing little angels.

So which is it? When can one stop being an innocent? Or does innocence ever really end?

I'm thinking too much, aren't I? Ugh.

The question in Facebook's Friends Exposed was, "If Stella won an award for something, what would it be?".

And this was Xinji's answer: "Uhhh..I know! The BEST SMILE of the YEAR AWARD! yeah! \m/" followed by a comment: "I'm serious! I remembered on the semester break when I met her..and I was in a bad mood ..she smiled, and I couldn't help but smile too >__> (smiling is evil, it makes a person feel happy or forget something bad was happening to him/her D:).

LOL! That was probably the sweetest compliment I have ever gotten (not that I'd tell him that)! And from a very clueless guy like Xinji nonetheless! My heart's all aflutter! XD Now I have even more reason to smile. Take that, mom and your comment about me smiling too much! Bwahahahahaha >3

Anyway, I commented back with: Ahahaha aw! Now I have to smile often now! :D

He anwered: yeah yeah! like I always said.."No matter how much confused and tired you are, how much you feel pain, how much you feel sadness just keep on smiling because who knows you might cheer up other people and perhaps yourself?"

I said: lol. I know! I didn't even know you were in a bad mood that time!XD Thanks for the compliment, btw~ but that doesn't meanI won't tease you anymore! nyahaha!

Xinji: aww.. D:

Lol. Poor guy. Either way, his comment made my day! XD

Gianne offered me to buy that Gaelen Foley book again today. She said this time, it was okay for her to pay for the WHOLE book and that I can just pay her in half gradually. And is it just a coincidence that my parents are sending me money next week? Maybe. Am I meant to buy that book? Who knows. We'll never know until tomorrow. If that book is still on shelf by tomorrow afternoon, then I'm taking it as what it is. Whether that book will be there waiting or now, I'll leave it all to Fate now.

Lol! That sounded so...monk-like. Urgh...

Also, even with Fate being all nice and good where the book is concerned, it'd not being very kind to me where my flash drive is concerned. It was the second one I had! AND NOW IT'S LOST!!! The first one was broken by my really good (note the sarcasm) classmate of mine, an action SHE blamed me for. And now...I JUST CAN'T FIND IT ANYMORE!!! WTH! Am I NOT meant to own a freaking flashdrive? A flashdrive is one of THE MOST essential things college student shoudl have!

I HAVE BEEN SO CAREFUL WITH IT! *pant pant pant*

What am I going to do now? I can't buy a new one! *moans* Of all the things to go missing, it just HAD to be that one!

Man, Life, as they say, truly is a bitch.

A friend's boyfriend told me that to learn to resist temptations, you should keep it close and stand firm to resistance. And he was right, in a way. Of course, back then, our conversation revolved around credit cards being in which wallet. Turns out, I can resist the temptation of spending too much. I was reared by a cheapskate-woman after all. Resisting the urge to buy the latest book of your favorite authors, on the other hand, is proving to be a much more difficult task than resisting the urge to go on an unwarranted shopping spree.

I feel SO hollow having to leave Christine Feehan's Dark Curse and Gaelen Foley's My Wicked Marquess behind at that bookstore. I was this close, this close, to buying the My Wicked Marquess book because Gianne had offered to split the price with me and I can just pay her the other half when I get my next allowance. I was also so very close to calling my parents borrowing money from them so I could buy Dark Curse, closer even, to calling my gran-gran for an early Christmas present...

But as we were idly looking for other interesting books, Gaelen Foley's book safely on the shelf and on reservation for tomorrow's purchase, it was like a movie was flashing before my eyes. Flashbacks of the numerous conversations my mother and I had about the need to cut down spending, another of the one when I called my dad to send me extra money the last time I found another book from my favorite authors, and the other flashbacks where my parents had to regretfully refuse me of the one vanity I have because of hard times.

And so, with an aching heart, I fervently hoped Gianne wanted another book so that we wouldn't have to buy the one I had reserved for. And hollowly, I achingly refused when she insisted we buy the book because I wanted it, seemed like I would die for it.

I had to refuse. It was the right thing to do. I couldn't ask for more money from my parents knowing what they're going through.

Ugh. Damn conscience.

Just once I wish I had the guts to be spoiled. Ever since I was a little kid, I always, always have to make way for other people. For my brother (A real spoiled brat really even when we were growing up), my cousins (once when I was 5, my father coerced me to give up my bike--MY PRECIOUS BIKE--to my cousin, only for him to break it to merciless pieces in the end), my classmates (And now they think I'm a pushover, which I am so not because I can kick some major ass when I want to!).

It would be so easy to lie though. I know a lot of students who lie to their parents about the tuition fee just so they'd have extra money. And even if I do decide to lie, I wouldn't have the guts to ask for financial help because I know they're going through financial straits themselves. And I don't think I can put my parents through that.

Still though. Books are my vanity. And being so close and yet so far... *cries* TT.TT

Resisting temptations SUCKS!

But I guess it can't be helped. I've always stood firm in the belief of "Good things come to those who wait", and I will wait. And when I finish studying, I'm going to buy myself a freaking LIBRARY, damn it!

Lol. Angst-fest over.

I definitely need a job though. But with the challenging subjects I've got now, I don't think I can risk my grades. My mom also discourages part-time jobs. Says I'll be too distracted and wouldn't have time, which is true, now with the Terror Teacher, Prof. O is handling a major subject of mine and Dr. Dy taking the reins of 2 of my professional subjects, I'm going to need as much leeway as I can get!

My slobbing days are number, people!

What type of Fae are you?

LOL! Somehow, this test feels like it knows where exactly to hit! -_-; Uncanny, really...

Check these out! Piglets!!! LOL! I couldn't help not posting these! They were just TOO CUTE! They were born last Tuesday! 12 were born but 2 died, so there are about 10 piglets left all in all! Cute, aren't they? We can't pet them though. They shiver and run from you like hell. *pouts* My uncle said it was because they were ticklish. LOL!


This is the piggies' mother! O.O She's SO HUGE!!!


Awww! Makes me wanna squeeze 'em to death! Haha!

I got a chance to see the little snorting creatures when we went to visit my grandmother and grandfather at their little farm. And after playing with the little things, we went to the beach. I haven't swam in the ocean in a long time! I was making the most of it and all of the family members had a grand time too.

As a result, we got home dried up and all prune-like. I also came out tanner than I normally was.

Damn it! Now whenever I take of my watch (I wore it when I was swimming), I see a small patch of skin lighter than the others and I am then reminded of my torturous future ahead of me, which entailed a lot of avoiding the sun, and a rediculous amount of lightening lotion I have to apply just so I could get back to my original skin color!

So not looking forward to that! It doesn't help the fact that coming January, we're going to have swimming classes for our PE class, and I will have to forever endure getting tanner and tanner every week until the semester ends! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Argh! Curse those little things called melanine!

Randomly, I remember a teacher once say that guys think about sex every six or so seconds. She asked a guy to stand up in class and asked him if it were true. He started to answer as the teacher started counting, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, sex! The poor kid was so shocked all he could do was stare and everyone in class erupted in laughter.

I'm just saying. Lol. I have to remember to ask Adz about this...if I ever see him again. XP

Do you think it's true?

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, sex!

LOL!

Random? Pervy? Hurray for randomness~

Nothing much happened today. Despite the fact that it's Friday the Thirteenth which is said to be an unlucky day. Feh. While I had a lot to say about this day the last year, now I'm posting for the sake of posting. Because it's Friday the Thirteenth, and because this is also the second time that this title, "Friday the Thirteenth" has been published here in my lj. I sound redundant don't I? What, with repeating Friday the Thirteenth, Friday the Thirteenth over and over again. But just for the sake of annoying you, I'll say it again.

Friday the Thirteenth!

Oh, and despite the fact that it's Friday the Thirteenth (oh yes i said it. yay for redundancy!), today is also my grandma's birthday! Haven't called her though. She's busy taking care of her pig's new born piglets, her and grandpa. But we're going to pay them a visit and, yay, we're going to the beach and, no, I don't think any of my gand'rents are going to be wearing any thongs, thank god! LOL.

That would be a very traumatic experience. Ack! O.O

Friday the Thirteenth! Bwahahaha >3

The BBC believes most people will have read only 6 of the 100 books here. Instructions: Copy this into your NOTES. Look at the list and put an 'x' after those you have read. Tag other book nerds---and that would include me as I want to see what people have read.

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen - x
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien -
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte -
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling - x
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee - x
6 The Bible - I never got around to finish. >,<
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte -
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell -
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman -
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens -
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott - x
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy –
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller –
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare - Only half of it...T.T
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier -
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien - x
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk -
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger - x
19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger-
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot -
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell -
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald -
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens -
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy -
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams -
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky -
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck -
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll- x
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame-
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy -
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens -
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis - x
34 Emma-Jane Austen - x
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen - x
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis - x
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini -
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres -
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden - x
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne -
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell - x
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown -
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez -
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving-
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins -
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery - x
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy -
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood -
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding - x
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan- I hesitate to read this. They say it's sad :'(
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel -
52 Dune - Frank Herbert -
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons-
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen - x
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth -
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon -
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens -
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley -
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night - Mark Haddon-
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez -
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck - x
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov-
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt -
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold -
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas -
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac -
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy -
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding- Y--because I've only seen the movie! LOL
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie –
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville -
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens - x
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker -
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett - x
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson -
75 Ulysses - James Joyce -
76 The Inferno – Dante -
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome -
78 Germinal - Emile Zola -
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray - x
80 Possession - AS Byatt –
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens - x
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell -
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker -
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro -
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert -x
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry -
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White - x
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven Mitch Albom -
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Dole - x
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton -
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad -
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery - x
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks -
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams -
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole -
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute -
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas - x
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare - x
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl - x
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo -

Sooo many books! Makes me wanna own 'em all. Too bad I'm poor. Ugh. Some of them I've only read excerpts so I hope that counts! Now all you bookworms out there--meme it up!

EDIT: There! No more excerpt ones! Weeeh!

Gianne gives has the weirdest ideas. Yes, even weirder than me.

First she suggests I match make my favorite cousins with my best friends and make a story out or their lovelives, never mind the fact that all of almost all of my favorite cousins have long-time girlfriends, and are likely to stay that way for a long time. And while the very thought can be amusing, thinking about it is just...weird. I have known my best friends for a long time. My cousins even longer. pairing them up feels...incest-y.

Sort of. Kind of.

Um...(o.O)

Weird.

THEN she tells me I should, and I quote, "definitely go and try to flirt with guys and then turn them into love sick puppies because it's fun!".

And all I can say to that is, LOL! Because while she does the art art of coquette-ism to a flawless fault,  I, however, lack a certain hormone called the pheromone, therefore rendering me unable to attract guys, much less charm them! (=^^=) And really, seriously?! LOL! I told her I was the kind of girl guys see as "one of the guys" rather than the "one for the guys".

Misgivings aside though, I tried to imagine myself doing the things she said worked really well for her like hanging to their every word, laughing at every joke they make, twirling or playing with her hair, making eyes, and act all damsel-in-distress like, and I was like, WTF? -_-;

If I did any of those things in front of a guy, especially the twirling with the hair and the making with the eyes, the poor souls would likely go all, 'Holy--!' and then go running for the hill before I could even bat an eyelash! Lol! XD

No, seriously.

She seems pretty worried for my lovelife--or the lack, thereof--though. And that could spell trouble. Pray she turn her matchmaking tendencies elsewhere. I know what I'm capable of, and turning boys into lost puppies is not one of 'em. Seriously.

A pulp, however, is another matter. >3 bwahahaha

Um. My aunt said that "the dirtiest mouth on earth is the human mouth". So that got me thinking... If two people kiss or something...it's like unhygienic, right? (o.O)

On that thought: Ew.

So tomorrow the 2nd semester starts. Not saying I'm looking forward to that. On hindsight, I'm still not validated for the second semester since I lost my ID and I had to go to a Public Attorney to ask for an Affidavit of Loss. Can I just say, WTF? A school ID needs that kind of thing? Seriously?

Luckily, Gianne was kind enough to go with me. Didn't get a chance to go to Commelec though and get myself registered for the 2010 elections. Meh. Not that it matters. I hate Politics, and that's that.

Tomorrow, I have to remember to get myself validated. Oh, and I have to get up at 7:30 am tomorrow too, an early PE class. Again, another big UGH. I haven't seen anything earlier than 7am since the school year started! How am I supposed to drag myself out of bed at 6? On the bright side, I get to finish all of my classes early! 3:30pm TTH; 4:30pm MWF! Awesome!

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Okay, now for an overdue post on the two debuts I've attended! Whooohoo! Those were the best parties I've had in AGES! Especially Mau-Mau's birthday! I got to see everyone, the BAYOT, had pictures taken of me in a dress...oh, and I learned how to pout for the camera (though I still suck at it)!!!

Shobe and I sang our song, we hosted a raffle-thing, sang another song, this time with Kay...and ate FOOOOOD!!!

After the party, with the dancing and the pictorials that came with it, we went to a country house Maureen rented to host her overnight party. We shared a room with the boys...and we were like sardines forced together in a can. I managed to sleep in one twin bed between JM and Shobe...woke up at freaking 3am in the morning to see everyone else settled on the floor taking shots of vodka, dozed off, woke up again when Cams jumped on me and forced me to take a shot. I refused at first, but after much coercing from the rest of the occupants, I took one shot.

One.

Shobe took two. They handed me another, I refused stubbornly. I'm not too keen on alcohol. And I can't say I'm looking forward to drinking again. I mean after witnessing Maureen get  wasted as hell, well...I think that was enough to swear off alcohol. She kept smothering me on the bed and I had to struggle so I could breathe...poor JM had to endure the whole thing as I was making use of his stomach as a pillow...and Hamsa...had to have a free flash show from all the struggling. Oh, god that was so embarrassing. Thankfully, I have no pheromones to speak of to appeal to a guy. Or that would've been really awkward. Cams also got new members to her fanclub (Marvin and Cesar to name a few), I got to witness Shobe being a whiny bitch at 4am in the morning with enormous bags under her eyes.

On the bearly 3 hours of sleep I got, all in all, I had lots of fun!

mau, Shob, Cams and I went swimming in the morning and I also got to wear a bikini! Lolz! I thought I'd never see the day. Cams fell asleep on the pool...while hanging off the edge. Poor girl. I almost drowned from diving headlong into 8-9 feet water with no stamina to speak of.

After that we went home, Cams and I slept at Shobe's house for an hour or two, found out we left our freaking dresses at the counrty house, travelled back only to find out Maureen took it with her, went back home and dropped dead on the bed. An hour of sleep later, I was ordered to take a nice shower and prepared for Jam's party.

At Jam's...well, basically history just repeated itself. I went home, bone-tired and feet sore from the heels I had to endure for two nights straight.

At home, I flopped on the bed, slept, woke up the next morning to the sound of my mom screeching for me to pack up because I was going back to Bacolod.

Wow.

And I though vacation was supposed to be about relaxation. I never thought partying could take so much out of you.

And now...ON TO THE PICTURES!! HAZZUH!!

Taken at Maureen's party:
( Pictures... )

At Jam's party:
( More Pictures... )

Yep! These were easily the parties of the century! Coming December though, it's going to be Chrissa's turn and I can't wait to raise the roof again! LOL!

Pat-a-cake, pat-a-cake baker's man. bake me a cake as fast as you can. Roll it and pan it and mark it with be and put it in the oven for baby and me.

Now, you might be wondering what the hell was that about. Well. I watched over my brother for half the day today because my mother made like a baker and patted a cake and no, she didn't mark it with a B for Marric and me. instead she left me with my nine-month old brother to feed him freaking goop. And let me tell you, I'm considering rethinking that one goal where I spawn a beautiful little boy into this earth, and whether that beautiful baby boy has a father or not remains to be seen, because taking care of a child can be one thing, feeding it can be another. I swear it was like I was having a massive food fight with a baby! We got goop in our faces, our shirts, on the crib, on the floor, on my legs, on his tiny arms, on our hair...

And then there was the struggle of actually getting the spoon into his mouth....I swear, if I'm going to spawn a kid that's as energetic and...and...hyper as my baby brother, I don't think I'll be able to handle it!

Now I'm bone tired, and thankfully he's asleep after we gave him his little bath-y...which didn't go as peacefully as it should've gone but meh. Weariness aside, it's fun taking care of a baby. But I don't think I'd want to take care of one 24/7 though. I think I just might keel over.

Though it's pretty ironic when I think about it because the line of work I'm studying for actually requires me to take care of kids...ten times as hyper as Marric. Ugh. I don't even want to think that far ahead.

On a side note, my best friends are coming over and we're going to rehearse the song, the dance...another song...and when Mau's skiddadled, prepare her gift for tomorrow's party. Which reminds me of my dress...Ugh. I need to pick it up later this afternoon too.

On another side note, Marieza called me last night asking me where I to find a dress, I directed her to a second cousin of mine who has a penchant for entering beauty contests so, she'll likely get some dresses from her. Oh, and she complained about how JM seems to be hinting on switching partners with me. It went like:

Marieza: ...so JM said "Marieza, are you sure you really want to pair up with me?" and I said, "Of course I'm sure, who would be my partner if you weren't?" and then he said, "Jawe (The unknown guy I'm supposed to be partners with)"
Me: And then what did you say?
Marieza: I said no because I don't even know that Jawe (Pronounced Jah-Weh) person.
Me: I don't either, but my partner now is Bruce. Maybe we can switch now because you know Bruce.
Marieza: Nah, I'll stick with JM. I can't understand why he's hesitating
Me: I think because we're close and he's comfortable...? Maybe we should switch.
Marieza: No thanks. Bruce is too serious for me, he's no fun because he's from the honor's section and I don't think I'll get along with him well. And of course JM's close and comfortable with you because you two have your own worlds.

Okay LOL. That is SO not true!

Anyway, she refuses to switch so I think JM's just going to have to bear with her. Too bad for that idiot. Funny thing though, I was kinda looking forward to dancing the Cotellion de Honnor (that's actually what the dace is called, not Cotillion. LOL. Thank god for invitations!) with JM. We partnered briefly a few days back so he could show me the steps and he was a good dancer. Not stiff at all...not that Bruce is stiff and all, but I can't really touch Bruce as familirly as I can touch JM. And it doesn't hurt that JM actually smells nice (it's like his sweat is cologne or something)....um. Not that I think Bruce smells bad...Ugh.

Shutting up now.

...And I hear crying. Baby's up! Got to jet! Next post will be about the party itself! Whoohooo! PAHRTEY!!!

I never thought my Social Life could be so busy. There is too many things to do and so little time! I've got two major parties to go to, which means I need to new dresses to buy...and where I'm going to find those dresses, I have no idea. Ugh. I have to practice the cotillion that we're dancing on Mau's birthday with the others, Prepare Shobe's gift, practice the song I'm singing with the rest of Blitz on Mau's birthday again, text JM for our color coordinated shirt and dress for Jam's party, Help Cams buy her gift for Mau's birthday and finally, go to the parties themselves.

Whoa. And there I was in Bacolod rotting my college life away. In my hometwon, I don't think I'll be sleeping for two nights straight!

And today I met up with my other high school pals, and I MISSED THEM SO MUCH!

Everyone is so grown up and handsome and beautiful! I swear Mau's birthday is going to be BIG! It's like a reunion for those who were my friends in high school! They kissed me when I arrived and some commented on my loss of weight (which is great btw), and Marieza was so psyched to see me, and I touched fists and exchanged high fives with the guys (I missed doing that because I don't touch fists with the guys in my university)...and JM  even hugged me! O.o Which comes as a real surprise...and I hugged back! No seriously! We don't hug, the two of us. We've never even hugged before! We're close friends, even my mom thought he was my boyfriend at one point, but we've never showed physical affection, friendly or otherwise. The only guy I've ever hugged was Justin, a close cousin...and Jayvee (I call him Chubby because he was fat when we were little) and he's a cousin too. Lol. It was nice though, hugging JM. At least I know our friendship hasn't been strained in the least. I haven't seen him in 6 months without contact after all. 

And Paolo! LOL. I missed that spaz! We couldn't stop laughing together! LOL. That crazy idiot!

Sigh~I can't wait to see the rest of VALIANT again at Mau's party. This is going to be so great!

Well, gots to go. Update on the parties and all the hectic things ahead will be posted soon! GAH! Need...to...sleep....while I still can....

WEEEEH!!! LUCY! I'M HOOOOOOOOOOOOME!!!!!

LOL! Ah, it's good to be back. Nothing is going to ruin this week long vacation! Nothing!

And you know why? Because it started out sooo well! Starting with my flight! LOL! And let me telly you it did not go uneventful! No siree!

At the 30 minute flight, there was that guy that broke the...uneventfulness of it all by...snoring. OUT LOUD! Kay and I couldn't stop laugh out heads off! At least silently. My eyes were tearing up from all the quiet guffawing!

And then when we arrived at our stop over city, Cebu, we went to Mactan, the very place where the historical battle of Magellan and Lapu-Lapu took place! It was AWESOME! We had lunch there too. Kay, me and Kay's sister Regine were all picked up by Regine's ex-boyfriend...and his mother. She was the one who prepared the lunch. To see old lovers flirt again....it was...amusing, to say the least. Really, really amusing! I called them, the Lovers of Mactan. Nothing funny about it, but heh.

And then....then....when Kay and Regine left for their flight since mine was still hours away...Tita Alma, the Regine's ex's mother too me and her son to SM...where...where I came face to face with....OMG! cutecrazyice !!!

Like, Kya~~~~~

How awesome was that?!

We talked, we walked, we ate...and ate...and ate! I HAD SO MUCH FUN! We were like old buddies! No two strange girls who met online! And Ice was SO AWESOME! There was never a dull moment with her! And we never even stopped talking! Not once in the...*counts*...four hours I spent with her and we got along so great and we talked about a lot of stuff I thought we'd never talk about in person and...and...it was a day I will always remember my whole dang life! LOL!

And now I'm home and I'm taking care of my 9 month old brother...and HE'S SO CUTE!!! They say he looks just LIKE ME! But I don't see it! He's too cute!

And anyway, I still have a lot to do...debuts to attend and bars to hop and people to surprise!

And speaking of surprises....I got to jet. I'm surprising Mau2 today by showing up and basically being the crazy girl she just sent 3000 bucks to just to get my ass back here and attend her 18th birthday! Huzzah! More later!

I'm going back to my hometown for the break tomorrow! I'm excited! And, oh, today's the official start of our semester break! Weee! I had a harried week last week, will elaborate on that when I get home tomorrow...and with my trip too. There's a big possibility I might be able to meet cutecrazyice in person! O.O HOOO---SHAAAA!!!

Well, I'm off!

I am in desperate need of cash. My college is bleeding me dry! UGH! I can't even think clearly anymore!
All I can think about is how to budget my meager allowance. I don't want to ask any more money from my parents. They already have a lot to worry about. No choice though. Ugh. I can't wait for this semester to be over. My school is FREAKING corrupt!

Last night, I had a chat online with Reyshelle, my classmate and report partner for Sped 102 and 103.

Me: Reysh, for our report tomorrow, we'll be using the OHP 'cause we can't use the LCD

Reyshelle: We have a report tomorrow? Why didn't you tell me! I thought I was still on October 3. You told me so!

Okay, there is something definitely wrong with this statement. First off, I did not tell her the report was on one Oct. 3. I told her we were reporting for Thursday! WTH! You know, she wouldn't even get the information wrong if she would just SHUT UP for one second and listen to me instead of blabbering and gossiping and bragging around other people! And second, how is it my responsibilty to tell you when the report is? It's like telling her when to take a freaking bath! I mean, isn't it just common sense that when you have a reporting presentation, you're supposed to know the day of the presentation?! That aside, I DID TELL YOU WHEN OUR REPORT WAS , DAMN IT!

Hee-hoo, hee-hoo...

I AM SO FREAKING MAD RIGHT NOW!

What the hell!

And the worst part?

Reyshelle: We're not going to use the OHP, that's just going to cost us money. Let's just do a powerpoint presentaion.

Me: I already told you we can't to a powerpoint because we don't have an LCD projector. We didn't resrve one ahead of time.

Reyshelle: Then we'll look for one tomorrow.

Me: ...Fine. But you make the powerpoint. I'm not good at those.

Reyshelle: Ok, send it to me.

Me: Later. I still have to look for other sources because the reseach report we sent in last time (A report, I might add that SHE did) isn't the one we're looking for. Will you be online all night? (Because I knew it was going to take all night).

Reyshelle: Nope. My sister's going to be using the computer.

Me: But you have to do the powerpoint.

Reyshelle: Can't you do it? Don't you know basic powerpoint?

Me: Sure...but...oh, all right. But you're going to have to look for a room with an LCD projector tomorrow. I have an appointment tomorrow.

Reyshelle: Okay.

Well, there you have it.

You know what's so wrong about this? The fact that she doesn't listen to anything I say. I already said we should've used the OHP projector and had she agreed, I could've had the acetates ready for our report! But Nooooooo! We just had to do a powerpoint presentation! A presentation I wasted so much effor ton because in the end we didn't even use the freaking thing because we had no LCD!

UI()&^*^%^&$%$&(^*(!!!!!!!

And as for the acetates? Yeah, I was the one who ran around like an idiot trying to figure out where to get one done too! What did she do? Research for add-ons on our report. Add-ons that weren't even useful!

F***!

My God! I don't think I can take mych more of this!

And she broke my Flash Drive too. She broke it. My Flash Drive. And she blamed me.

How wrong is that?

She accused me of not reminding her that it was our report the following day, and all I could do was say I forgot, when I already did remind her! 2 days before the freaking report! WHAT THE FU--!

I don't know how long I can stand to be a pushover. I really don't, because I'm not. I'm not a pushover; I'm really not. Were she a boy, I would've already puched her living daylights out faster than she could even say her own name! My patience is wearing thin. Really. I have been abused for far too long now! By five people now. But, right now, Reysh takes the cake.

I swear she is such a manipulative bitch!

When she doesn't even need anything from me, she ignores me like a street urchin!

For the next reporting I have with her this Tuesday...God help me if I don't explode! I can only take so much abuse. I'm sick of being used and pushed around!

I want to avoid conflicts as much as possible. I don't want a fight. But she's really pushing me. They're really pushing me.

One more though. One more wrong move and I will take matters into my own hands and really explode like my namesake! And let me tell you, I never go without a Bang!

I swear I am suffocating from being buried in mountains and mountains of projects and projects! ACK! I can't stay long! I just want to rant! I hate it when I have to do everything! And Reyshelle isn't even being helpful, freaking damn it!

I'm downloading ebooks again. I can't help it! I've got, like, a hundred ebooks stored in my files and I've only ever read one! LOL!

Our PE teacher met up with the group I was playing billiards with last week, after we had our tenpin bowling today, and...we got in trouble. Yep. There is a possibility that I might actually fail PE...if not, repeat it the next year because our freaking college has this freaking rule about not being allowed to have a final grade lower than freaking 80!

FREAKING!

I'M FAILING PE!!! How is THAT POSSIBLE?!

I don't even try when it comes to PE and I get, like, close to 90! FREAKING TEACHER!

Ugh.

Stupid Charie and her stupid conscience!

Well...not really.

We were found out that we cheated on out billiards game. And no, I don't mean that I cheated (And I know you might be thinking, how can you cheat at billiards anyway? Well, apparently, when there's a will; there's always a way. No, seriously!). I kind of got dragged into the whole thing through knowledge of the crime.

FREAKING ^%^$#!

Man. It's either we fail on our participation grade or the practicum grade. And I don't think I can afford failing on  one of either because last term I kinda had a falling out with the teacher and she didn't let me play the freaking 8ball! And the exam was a total bust because, hello, who the hell memorizes the color of the corresponding number of the ball?!

WTF!

I seriously do not want to repeat PE. PE DAMN IT!

**(&^^#%^R^##$^&*(&*!!!

I'm supposed to be a karate player! WHAT KIND OF KARATE PLAYER FAILS AT PE?!

And who the hell fails at PE anyway?!

This just reminds me of Brie Lasron's songs. Which is ironic since I used to scoff about how silly the song was, but now it's actually happening to me!

Finally Out of PE

I'm late again
Got a lower grade today than yesterday
You hate me
That's why you don't care what I have to say

And I try
But my running sucks
And I try
But I hate doing gym class

I, I play guitar
But in your class
That won't get me far
Please, give me a "C"
So that I can be
Finally out of P.E.

I'm never gonna win a medal
But maybe a Grammy
You don't care
You just wanna make sure that you fail me

In my mind
I'm so far away
In my mind
I am on a stage

I, I play guitar
But in your class
That won't get me far
Please, give me a "C"
So that I can be
Finally out of P.E.

You may think I'm just a troublemaker
But I have talent you can't see
Just because I'm not athletic
Doesn't mean that you can degrade me
I show up, shouldn't that be enough

I, I play guitar
But in your class
That won't get me far
Please, give me a "C"
So that I can be
Finally out of P.E.

I, I play guitar
But in your class
That won't get me far
Please, give me a "C"
So that I can be
Finally out of P.E.

Ain't it ironic?

.....

Today I had an actual conversation with Jason, a classmate of mine and he's one of the only trio boys in my course. One is Shuji, a funny guy and someone I can get along with, no problem. The second one is...err..J..something. I don't really know him. Not everyone's too keen on getting to know him actually, 'cause he's kinda...out there...if you know what I mean.

Um. Oh, right, Jason! Anyway. We talked about mundane stuff. Mostly I did the asking because I was bored out of my mind and he happened to be sitting right beside me. I asked him about his fave bands, if he had his ipod with him (because I'm pathetic because I don't have one) and asked him about his band (he plays...and sings vocals) His band's name is Arresting George. 

"Why George?" I asked.

"It's the name of my brother." he said.

LOL.

We talked for a bit until Roxanne came up to me and asked me to do the script for our puppet show, pointedly ignoring Jason.

After she went away he said, "She's ignoring me."

"Why?" I asked. Like I hadn't noticed.

"She's angry."

I blinked. "Um, why?" I paused. "Oh, wait! I know! You were with another girl during the U(niversity)-Week!"

This time he stared. "How did you know that?"

I sniggered. "Because I have little mole rats poking around everywhere!" And it's true. That mole rat happened to be Kristel too. Haha. "Roxanne got jealous?"

Jason shrugged. "I don't know. Maybe."

"You're an idiot." I know! Pretty blunt for a first decent conversation with him, huh? "Why were you with your ex anyway?! It's obvious that any girlfriend in the right mind would be jealous!"

"Actually..." he looked at me sheepishly. "that girl  is actually my current girlfriend."

To say that I wasn't shocked, well I would be lying. Because I was shocked. I thought it was common knowledge that Jace and Rox were together. I mean they're barely apart, and everyone knows that their "We're just best friends" act was just a cover because Rox's parents are strict or something like that. And besides, I've seen first had proof that they were(...um, are?) together.

"...Did you cheat then?" I asked...tentatively...and oh-so casually.

"No. Rox and I were never together. We're friends."

This time I had the decency to snort. "Ha! As if I'd believe that! I have proof that you're together!"

"What would that be?" He replied innocently.

Innocent my butt!

"I've seen you. At Ms. Dumagat's class!" I've seen you guys kissed! I wanted to add.

"Why would...that's her mother's class!"

"Like that'd stop you!"

"I told you we're just friends!" he persisted.

"Besides," I continued on as if I hadn't heard him. "Why would she be jealous is you were just friends?"

He opened his mouth to answer but was cut short when Ms. Cherry announced that she was going to give the grade for Sped 103 next time because it was already the end of class. The whole classroom was then a-buzz so there was no room for further conversation for us. But before we got up and left, I heard him him say almost inaudibly, "We have a Mutual Understanding" (meaning they have a mutual interest with each other).

I turned to him, but he was already standing up and leaving.

Hmm...

My Curious Cat has once again been peaked. Ugh, I am such a busybody!

This is what I get for having such a boring life.

Oh, and speaking of boring. I met Gianne today too. We exchanged books. I lent her A Whisper of Roses by Teresa Medeiros and So Worthy My Love by Kathleen Woodiwiss. And she let me borrow her Lion's Lady by Julie Garwood! I can't read it full on right now though.

I still have to make the script! And then...look for the definition for our IDEA Dictionary. Oh, and research for our report on Thursday! Ack! So much to do...so much to do and so little lime!